Tuesday, 10 August 2010

MY BLOG IS DEAD

Hehez, it had been a long time since the last time i posted something
and, every time is about, (L)...
as usual, this time as well, dun say me annoying =P

Yes, 5th Aug, I betrayed my wives! ><
means, i got mistress outside marhz..
lol

Omgzz, why would i shift my feelings so fast...
The only thing i can sure is,
I am not a hongster, is just,
too easy to have feelings on someone...
hopefully it will last long ba..
since im alrdy fell in it.

naturally, he fell in as well XP
at least i hope :)

Ohh yea, tmr is EL common test!
Wish everyone all the best :)

Monday, 10 May 2010

Whats more to say?

I dun think i'll be recovered so soon..
He was like, heck care..lolz
Whats more to say?
He din even put me in his heart...
He din even care abt my feeling ..
He din even do what he shld do,
As i was his girl.
So what can i do if we continue..

All the way
I was the one who seemed putting in effort.
Did he even try to do sth abt our thing?
Maybe, he has no experiences.
If he do want to build up the bridge betwn us,
he shld know what and how to do.
Probably he's not deserve to have a stead.
What i wanted were juz those basic things.
He couldn't make me felt safe when wif him.

For him, i had changed a lot.
He doesn't care or at least do sth abt it..
Maybe we din have a time talk to each other.
Every time when i was taking abt some sensitive things,
he would change the topic.
Thats the point,
we din have time to get to know each other..
Haiz..Now say what also useless.
Be happy, boy.

Saturday, 13 March 2010

New start..

08.03.2010.
I'll rmb this day forever.
Since the day, my life is no more empty.

There're something that i've learnt from the last boy..
And also, something that i want to share wif somebody..

Dun anyhow mention the word "break",
if you still hav feeling on the person,
otherwise you'll really regret.

Dun vent your anger at the person,
becoz of something that he or she are not involve in,
otherwise you are unreasonable.

Dun ignore the person,
juz for no reason,
otherwise he or she will feel sad.

Dun be paiseh when you see he or she,
be more active,
otherwise ur relationship will not improve.

Dun wait for he or she to come and find you,
talk to the person automatically,
otherwise the person will think that you dun like him or her.

Dun send those msg that are short and brief,
even you are good in summarize,
otherwise the person'll think that you are not paying attention.

Dun just reply the msg,
learn to find some new topic,
otherwise both of you will feel sian.

Dun anyhow change the topic,
if he or she is talking something important,
otherwise you are depressing the person.

Dun hide anything behind the person,
becoz there'd be no secrets betwn two of you,
otherwise you are trying to break the relationship.

..........................

I really want to make this time as long as possible,
so pls, dun let me fight alone.
Juz try your best,
that's enough.

Saturday, 6 March 2010

See, still complicated.

I have a good news and a not-bad news now.

The good one is,
I'm totally have no feeling on that person liao!
All of my frens said,
wow, it's a good improvement.

I still rmb last time,
i was listening to radio,
YES 93.3
one of the listener ask the DJ,
how long it needs to forget a person that you love
the DJ says,
Normally,
The time needed is 2 times those days u tgt wif the person.
example, if you tgt with the person for 2 months,
then you'll need about 4 months to forget.
but it depends on how much feeling u have on the person also
the more feeling you have,
the longer time u need.

erm.
as what the DJ says,
i should take 3 months to forget.
but i took 2 months longer.
is that means i really had alot of feeling on him?
I really unable to answer it now.
i'm now totally forget how the feeling takes place

Many weeks ago,
if i walked past him,
i'll kept pulling xuexin's arm:
"Xuexin! I saw him liao! but why he din say 'hi' to me.."
Xuexin'll answer:
"walau..so long alrdy u still cant forget?!!"
Now,
i can treat him as a normal fren,
my heart wun beat fast when walked past him.
I'm really happy for that.
he's not suit for my now.
becoz, he's probably a hongster.
funny sia..
he want compare wif me or what?

many days ago,
i wrote this on msn:
meet a complicated boy,
everything became more complicated.
This sentence made him misunderstood lols.
the boy is not the one all of u hope to be.
is not that silly boy...
some of my frenz u should know who he is.
aft he misunderstood my personal msg,
he started to chat wif me..
his words are not that special to me as afew weeks ago,
i can even told him that he've hurt me very deep.
I can say GOODBYE to him,
without hesitating.




The not-bad news is,
all of this are changed by another "him"
Boy,
thanks for listening to my complain
thanks for leting me vent my anger at u..
thanks for cooling me down when i was mad
thanks for making jokes when i'm sad
.............
thanks for pulling me out from the first "him"

Erm, hope u dun be sad in Indonesia,
dun make ur self too tired.
ur fren and i are here waiting for uu!
And, R.I.P, J's uncle..
:(

Sunday, 14 February 2010

Chinese new year.(See how sidetracking I am!!)

The chinese new yr,
as boring as those one before.
For me,
the most memorable day is last Fri.
When i was performing,
I was so touched that my classmates were there support me.
They shout so loud until starting i can't heard the piano.
Especially Jingyu!!
I could hear you from the stage!!
Thank you all!
Maybe some of my friends sat at the back of the hall
But I know they were supporting me oso.
Somebody complaining the hall was too noisy,
that's why he can't heard me clearly..
haha..he's disappointed..

Yesterday, doing housework all the day!!
My whole body's very painful now!
Blame my mom la..
She did not want to do that earlier.
then now everyone in my family must help her..
Even i'm complaining abt that,
I still felt happy.
Even I call that man as "uncle" but not "Daddy".
even my uncle will always angry wth me for no reason.
at least i have a family.
It's better than what i thought before.

Today, that uncle scold me again.
for making noise while he was sleeping.
you know what noise i made??
I type on the keyboard,
as well as click on the mouse.
He thrown some vulgarity at me then get out of the room.
What the hell.
The sound I made is call as NOISE??
I know he just wanna find some reason to scold me.
He can even sleep infront of a TV with loud volume.
He can also sleep while everyone's playing mahjong!
Pig la him.
Then he just cannot REST IN my PEACEful keyboard sound??
I really wanna slap him if i have a bigger size than him.
But that's impossible!
his size is also like a pig,
I scare later i'll become a 'meat cake' under his body.

What else can i do?
I can just accept what the life give me.
happiness, sadness, tear, laughter and scolding.
whatever it gave i should just accept.
And sometimes, i'll get something from it.
I WAS a hongster,
then now throw away by othger ppl.
I believe that,
the person'll get something from the life also.
Or, maybe he has get something already.
And the one who made him sad,
will get something also.
Maybe the punishment'll not come immediately.
But it can be any point as long as the person's alive.

HAHA!!!
LIFE's like this.
Everything's COMPLICATED!!
The best way is,
keep SMILING to yourself no matter how you feel.











                                                                  By:
                                                                  Kelsey.
                                                          (Do You Know
                                                                     I'm Waiting For You)

Wednesday, 3 February 2010

SO? AM I TOO SILLY??

Sorry everyone,
long time nv even touch my blog.
These few days,
I did not write my feelings and sadness in my blog.
I wrote in my diary.
The things happened these few days,
I wun dare to share with everyone.
Becoz i found out that i'm a silly girl.
Really an idiot.

Becos of the thing that made me feel sad,
I became damn emo while i'm alone.
I act happy in the school.
Some people might see my change.
Those are really know me deeply.
I'm happy to have those frens:)

I have a bad temper since i was born.
Today I shout at zuyu loudly during lifeskill.
I dunno why i shout at her,
Just suddenly feel unhappy.
Haizzzz.. For what i shout at her sia.
I think zuyu didnt angry.
She's understanding.
Especially aft she read what i'm writing now.

I dont like what i am now.
I dont like to be sad.
The improvement is,
I'll sad, but I will not cry.
Just keep quiet.
And think nothing in my brain.
I realized this is the best way to increase my sadness.
I'm disappointed with myself.

Friday, 11 December 2009

Because we are boys and girls

Boys, 
You are playful,you can play any girls you want. 
You can show off about how many girlfriends you have. 
After some girls get pregnancy because of you, 
You can leave without responsibility. 
Just because you are boys.

You can put someone you really love in your heart, 
But dating with someone you don't love. 
You always cheat on girls' feelings, 
The reason is that you don't want to hurt them.
Just because you are boys。

When the girl haven't become yours, 
You can do anything for her,including hurt yourself. 
When she's yours, 
you'll focus on those bad things about her, 
Even buey song about her
You are finding a excuses for flirting. 
Just because you are boys.

You make friend with a new girl, 
The main thing will be that she is not ugly. 
Next you'll complain in front of her, 
Complain about how your girlfriend. 
doesn't understand you,always not agree with you, 
doesn't suitable for you. 
Just because you are boys.

You can flirt with a girl that you didn't even know her, 
But forget about the girl who always stand by your side. 
You like new things, 
And also to like the new and loathe the old
Just because you are boys.




You are use to say yes and mean no, 
Use to make a bigger lie to cover your lies. 
Use to look at the one you love cry depressely, 
Once you don't love her, 
You'll say "You're a good girl, but we are not suitable". 
Just because you are boys.


Girls, 
You like to be loved,like to hear lies. 
As long as you like them. 
Always thought the Earth is turning for you, 
Always thought that you are the prettiest, 
Nobody is better than you. 
Because you're girls, you've privilege to be conceited.

You afraid of darkness and loneliness. 
You'll cry when watching a tragedy movie. 
You'll feel sad when listening to some songs, 
You're perceptual. 
Even you're a "superwoman", 
When the darkness falls, you'll feel painful. 
Because you're girls, you've privilege to be heartbroken.

You thought that he'll always to be with you. 
You thought that you're being loved. 
You always believe him stubbornly. 
You're sensitive,You'll distrust,you'll be fear, 
Because of a expression from his eyes, 
You'll follow him without an ask. 
Because you're girls, you've privilege to have happiness

You're not as strong as you think. 
You told yourself that you're good and it'll be OK. 
But you're not, actually you always regret. 
You'll scream because of Power-cut. 
You'll look at those massages he sent to you, 
with softly cry. 
You'll mistreat yourself with "fasting",
after break with him, 
When you look at those couples holding hands, 
You can only twist your mouth into wry smile. 
Those boys are nice, but aren't yours

Boys, 
Treat her good, 
she is weak, 
so weak as to be unable to stand any breeze. 
Girls, 
Treat yourself good, 
you're very strong, 
not everyone can defeat you.


Boys, 
There's a lot of pretty girls, 
but please don't be flirt, 
true love only once, 
it's hard to find it when you lose it.

Girls, 
This world is big and safe, 
a lot of good boys. 
next time you'll meet a "him" 
that is suitable for you.


Boys, 
Don't regret after many years 
that you were being loved by a good girl 
but didn't cherish her.
Girls, 
Love'll become mouldy, 
relatives will distrust you. 
The only one who won't betray you is friend.


Boys, 
sometimes you're bad. 
But there's still a person who loves you foolishly.
Girls, 
Actually you're good. 
But there's still an idiot who didn't cherish.

Boys, 
If i tell you that there is a girl 
who love you with her life, you must believe me. 
because that's true.

Girls, 
If there is a boy who will hug you 
when you feel cold, believe me, 
that's better than a bunch of rose.


Boys, 
Because you are boys, 
must do as what you say. 
Don't promise anything easily.

Girls, 
Don't crutch on anybody because you're girls. 
You're independent.
You might cry when you feel oppresive. 
But remember, 
there is a rainbow aft rain.