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2010-08-10T21:44:00.000+08:00

Hehez, it had been a long time since the last time i posted something
and, every time is about, (L)...
as usual, this time as well, dun say me annoying =P

Yes, 5th Aug, I betrayed my wives! ><
means, i got mistress outside marhz..
lol

Omgzz, why would i shift my feelings so fast...
The only thing i can sure is,
I am not a hongster, is just,
too easy to have feelings on someone...
hopefully it will last long ba..
since im alrdy fell in it.

naturally, he fell in as well XP
at least i hope :)

Ohh yea, tmr is EL common test!
Wish everyone all the best :)

Whats more to say?

2010-05-10T17:20:00.001+08:00

I dun think i'll be recovered so soon..
He was like, heck care..lolz
Whats more to say?
He din even put me in his heart...
He din even care abt my feeling ..
He din even do what he shld do,
As i was his girl.
So what can i do if we continue..

All the way
I was the one who seemed putting in effort.
Did he even try to do sth abt our thing?
Maybe, he has no experiences.
If he do want to build up the bridge betwn us,
he shld know what and how to do.
Probably he's not deserve to have a stead.
What i wanted were juz those basic things.
He couldn't make me felt safe when wif him.

For him, i had changed a lot.
He doesn't care or at least do sth abt it..
Maybe we din have a time talk to each other.
Every time when i was taking abt some sensitive things,
he would change the topic.
Thats the point,
we din have time to get to know each other..
Haiz..Now say what also useless.
Be happy, boy.

New start..

2010-03-13T14:40:00.000+08:00

08.03.2010.
I'll rmb this day forever.
Since the day, my life is no more empty.

There're something that i've learnt from the last boy..
And also, something that i want to share wif somebody..

Dun anyhow mention the word "break",
if you still hav feeling on the person,
otherwise you'll really regret.

Dun vent your anger at the person,
becoz of something that he or she are not involve in,
otherwise you are unreasonable.

Dun ignore the person,
juz for no reason,
otherwise he or she will feel sad.

Dun be paiseh when you see he or she,
be more active,
otherwise ur relationship will not improve.

Dun wait for he or she to come and find you,
talk to the person automatically,
otherwise the person will think that you dun like him or her.

Dun send those msg that are short and brief,
even you are good in summarize,
otherwise the person'll think that you are not paying attention.

Dun just reply the msg,
learn to find some new topic,
otherwise both of you will feel sian.

Dun anyhow change the topic,
if he or she is talking something important,
otherwise you are depressing the person.

Dun hide anything behind the person,
becoz there'd be no secrets betwn two of you,
otherwise you are trying to break the relationship.

..........................

I really want to make this time as long as possible,
so pls, dun let me fight alone.
Juz try your best,
that's enough.

See, still complicated.

2010-03-06T10:57:00.001+08:00

I have a good news and a not-bad news now.

The good one is,
I'm totally have no feeling on that person liao!
All of my frens said,
wow, it's a good improvement.

I still rmb last time,
i was listening to radio,
YES 93.3
one of the listener ask the DJ,
how long it needs to forget a person that you love
the DJ says,
Normally,
The time needed is 2 times those days u tgt wif the person.
example, if you tgt with the person for 2 months,
then you'll need about 4 months to forget.
but it depends on how much feeling u have on the person also
the more feeling you have,
the longer time u need.

erm.
as what the DJ says,
i should take 3 months to forget.
but i took 2 months longer.
is that means i really had alot of feeling on him?
I really unable to answer it now.
i'm now totally forget how the feeling takes place

Many weeks ago,
if i walked past him,
i'll kept pulling xuexin's arm:
"Xuexin! I saw him liao! but why he din say 'hi' to me.."
Xuexin'll answer:
"walau..so long alrdy u still cant forget?!!"
Now,
i can treat him as a normal fren,
my heart wun beat fast when walked past him.
I'm really happy for that.
he's not suit for my now.
becoz, he's probably a hongster.
funny sia..
he want compare wif me or what?

many days ago,
i wrote this on msn:
meet a complicated boy,
everything became more complicated.
This sentence made him misunderstood lols.
the boy is not the one all of u hope to be.
is not that silly boy...
some of my frenz u should know who he is.
aft he misunderstood my personal msg,
he started to chat wif me..
his words are not that special to me as afew weeks ago,
i can even told him that he've hurt me very deep.
I can say GOODBYE to him,
without hesitating.

The not-bad news is,
all of this are changed by another "him"
Boy,
thanks for listening to my complain
thanks for leting me vent my anger at u..
thanks for cooling me down when i was mad
thanks for making jokes when i'm sad
.............
thanks for pulling me out from the first "him"

Erm, hope u dun be sad in Indonesia,
dun make ur self too tired.
ur fren and i are here waiting for uu!
And, R.I.P, J's uncle..
:(

Chinese new year.(See how sidetracking I am!!)

2010-02-14T19:31:00.000+08:00

The chinese new yr,
as boring as those one before.
For me,
the most memorable day is last Fri.
When i was performing,
I was so touched that my classmates were there support me.
They shout so loud until starting i can't heard the piano.
Especially Jingyu!!
I could hear you from the stage!!
Thank you all!
Maybe some of my friends sat at the back of the hall
But I know they were supporting me oso.
Somebody complaining the hall was too noisy,
that's why he can't heard me clearly..
haha..he's disappointed..

Yesterday, doing housework all the day!!
My whole body's very painful now!
Blame my mom la..
She did not want to do that earlier.
then now everyone in my family must help her..
Even i'm complaining abt that,
I still felt happy.
Even I call that man as "uncle" but not "Daddy".
even my uncle will always angry wth me for no reason.
at least i have a family.
It's better than what i thought before.

Today, that uncle scold me again.
for making noise while he was sleeping.
you know what noise i made??
I type on the keyboard,
as well as click on the mouse.
He thrown some vulgarity at me then get out of the room.
What the hell.
The sound I made is call as NOISE??
I know he just wanna find some reason to scold me.
He can even sleep infront of a TV with loud volume.
He can also sleep while everyone's playing mahjong!
Pig la him.
Then he just cannot REST IN my PEACEful keyboard sound??
I really wanna slap him if i have a bigger size than him.
But that's impossible!
his size is also like a pig,
I scare later i'll become a 'meat cake' under his body.

What else can i do?
I can just accept what the life give me.
happiness, sadness, tear, laughter and scolding.
whatever it gave i should just accept.
And sometimes, i'll get something from it.
I WAS a hongster,
then now throw away by othger ppl.
I believe that,
the person'll get something from the life also.
Or, maybe he has get something already.
And the one who made him sad,
will get something also.
Maybe the punishment'll not come immediately.
But it can be any point as long as the person's alive.

HAHA!!!
LIFE's like this.
Everything's COMPLICATED!!
The best way is,
keep SMILING to yourself no matter how you feel.

                                                                  By:
                                                                  Kelsey.
                                                          (Do You Know
                                                                     I'm Waiting For You)

SO? AM I TOO SILLY??

2010-02-03T19:11:00.000+08:00

Sorry everyone,
long time nv even touch my blog.
These few days,
I did not write my feelings and sadness in my blog.
I wrote in my diary.
The things happened these few days,
I wun dare to share with everyone.
Becoz i found out that i'm a silly girl.
Really an idiot.

Becos of the thing that made me feel sad,
I became damn emo while i'm alone.
I act happy in the school.
Some people might see my change.
Those are really know me deeply.
I'm happy to have those frens:)

I have a bad temper since i was born.
Today I shout at zuyu loudly during lifeskill.
I dunno why i shout at her,
Just suddenly feel unhappy.
Haizzzz.. For what i shout at her sia.
I think zuyu didnt angry.
She's understanding.
Especially aft she read what i'm writing now.

I dont like what i am now.
I dont like to be sad.
The improvement is,
I'll sad, but I will not cry.
Just keep quiet.
And think nothing in my brain.
I realized this is the best way to increase my sadness.
I'm disappointed with myself.

Because we are boys and girls

2009-12-11T01:52:00.002+08:00

Boys,
You are playful，you can play any girls you want.
You can show off about how many girlfriends you have.
After some girls get pregnancy because of you,
You can leave without responsibility.
Just because you are boys.

You can put someone you really love in your heart,
But dating with someone you don't love.
You always cheat on girls' feelings,
The reason is that you don't want to hurt them.
Just because you are boys。

When the girl haven't become yours,
You can do anything for her，including hurt yourself.
When she's yours,
you'll focus on those bad things about her,
Even buey song about her.
You are finding a excuses for flirting.
Just because you are boys.

You make friend with a new girl,
The main thing will be that she is not ugly.
Next you'll complain in front of her,
Complain about how your girlfriend.
doesn't understand you，always not agree with you,
doesn't suitable for you.
Just because you are boys.

You can flirt with a girl that you didn't even know her,
But forget about the girl who always stand by your side.
You like new things,
And also to like the new and loathe the old,
Just because you are boys.

You are use to say yes and mean no,
Use to make a bigger lie to cover your lies.
Use to look at the one you love cry depressely,
Once you don't love her,
You'll say "You're a good girl, but we are not suitable".
Just because you are boys.

Girls,
You like to be loved，like to hear lies.
As long as you like them.
Always thought the Earth is turning for you,
Always thought that you are the prettiest,
Nobody is better than you.
Because you're girls, you've privilege to be conceited.

You afraid of darkness and loneliness.
You'll cry when watching a tragedy movie.
You'll feel sad when listening to some songs,
You're perceptual.
Even you're a "superwoman",
When the darkness falls, you'll feel painful.
Because you're girls, you've privilege to be heartbroken.

You thought that he'll always to be with you.
You thought that you're being loved.
You always believe him stubbornly.
You're sensitive，You'll distrust，you'll be fear,
Because of a expression from his eyes,
You'll follow him without an ask.
Because you're girls, you've privilege to have happiness

You're not as strong as you think.
You told yourself that you're good and it'll be OK.
But you're not, actually you always regret.
You'll scream because of Power-cut.
You'll look at those massages he sent to you,
with softly cry.
You'll mistreat yourself with "fasting",
after break with him,
When you look at those couples holding hands,
You can only twist your mouth into wry smile.
Those boys are nice, but aren't yours

Boys,
Treat her good,
she is weak,
so weak as to be unable to stand any breeze.
Girls,
Treat yourself good,
you're very strong,
not everyone can defeat you.

Boys,
There's a lot of pretty girls,
but please don't be flirt,
true love only once,
it's hard to find it when you lose it.

Girls,
This world is big and safe,
a lot of good boys.
next time you'll meet a "him"
that is suitable for you.

Boys,
Don't regret after many years
that you were being loved by a good girl
but didn't cherish her.

Girls,
Love'll become mouldy,
relatives will distrust you.
The only one who won't betray you is friend.

Boys,
sometimes you're bad.
But there's still a person who loves you foolishly.

Girls,
Actually you're good.
But there's still an idiot who didn't cherish.

Boys,
If i tell you that there is a girl
who love you with her life, you must believe me.
because that's true.

Girls,
If there is a boy who will hug you
when you feel cold, believe me,
that's better than a bunch of rose.

Boys,
Because you are boys,
must do as what you say.
Don't promise anything easily.

Girls,
Don't crutch on anybody because you're girls.
You're independent.
You might cry when you feel oppresive.
But remember,
there is a rainbow aft rain.

HooHoo~~

2009-11-25T13:31:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone!! I'm back!!
err i mean i'm back to blog!!
from 18 Nov to 24 Nov, i did not update my blog
it was becos of the chinese govrenment....
they dun allow to use other country's webside
and why i'm here again is becoz...
emm
i'm too clever~
haha actually long story luh.

I'v reached china.
here damn cold sia!!!
but too bad, dun hav snow!
everyday i must wear double long-slive T-shirt,
plus a jecket!
so can imagine how cold here is???

22 Nov, my 15th birthday!
i celebrate it wth my old classmates!
even thought my hair was full of cream when i'm back home,
but i really felt happy~
they gave me bday presents,
sang bday song for me,,
haiz i nearly cry out!
cos i'll not take it when i'm going to leave china
i'll miss them very much!

ofcoz i din forget abt my sg frenz~
some of them oso say happy bay tru msn.
guess who i spent the earlier 4 hrs to chat wth?
MR.CHEONG!!!
i'v totally forgotten what did we talk abt.
but can say tat chat wth him i felt relax~
he was not being a cher when we were chatting!!
yea thanks for those ppl who are still rmb my bday!

my new contact no. in china is +8613003935262..
if wanna call, 0188613003935262,
cos add 018 in front is cheaper, 8cent/min
if wanna msg, u can msg 008613003935262.
or straight away msg to my sg number.
hoo~ i know the number is too long~
call me if u r using sintel$128 or starhub happy$128!
cos got $28 international call in ur prepaid card~
leave it there oso no use rite??!!
then call me luh!!

i'm very sian lei.
frenz still nid to go sch every workday!
so my life only left play computer!!
i'v alrdy think of buying presents formy sg frenz
if want me to bring something for u,
juz say it on my tagbox!
love YOU all!

Hooo hooooo!!

2009-11-17T13:37:00.000+08:00

Nw I'm packing my things,,
tmr is time to go bak to my home!!
later go jp wth michelle
later come back shower,,
aft shower dinner,,
aft dinner watch TV,,
aft which sleep,,
sleep for 5 hrs then get up
rush to changi airport wth my fastest speed!
8:15 i'll be in the plane
12 plus I'll reach china!!!
I miss my classmates there,,
and my daddy!!
ofcoz aft i reach there i'll miss all of uu!!!
dun miss me too much hor,
later cannot sleep well..
bye everyone!!
See u 1 month later!!
:-***!!

Lyric..

2009-11-09T17:12:00.000+08:00

Another lyric!! Sorry Chinese again.. It was written by me on....err donno on which day alrdy...but i still wanna post it..haha

Must read it,, and write some commons about it:)

不忍忘记这悲伤

想着你入睡
挣扎着到底谁爱谁
为何我的付出随着热情地熄灭
一去不回
得不到半点回馈

洋娃娃的泪
其实一样撕心裂肺
最后他的心碎随着海水的渐退
深入骨髓
他也不再会关切

我失去遗忘
生命只剩彷徨
你折断了我的翅膀
又叫我如何飞翔
阴霾如一张网
困住了我的灵魂
却将身躯逐放

在梦中辗转难眠
苦笑着这样的我
是否值得可怜
而这样的爱
是否甘愿沉没于地平线

洋娃娃的泪
比谁都要撕心裂肺
最后他的心碎随着海水的渐退
消失骨髓
也没人回去关切

我接受捆绑
解脱又能怎样
思绪只随着你变换
又叫我如何反抗
放弃如一道光
能把我解救山冈
却将回忆埋葬

我无声呼喊
情愿沉静凌乱
完整的心只剩一半
又叫它如何璀璨
释怀如一堵墙
挡住了我的视野
膨胀我的悲伤

不论结局怎样
即使痛楚难堪
我不忍忘记这悲伤

Kays....finish...

Sianzzzzzz

2009-11-09T16:46:00.000+08:00

Have nothing to do..
morning went for band practice,,
Instead of me, Fadly played piccolo..
He's soo profesional at music...
When can i reach tat standard...
reached home, play computer..
skaly my mother not home
otherwise i wun have chance to play de..

Ystday i changed room with my parents..
my original room is bigbig one!!
now my new room very small sia!!
haizz..
I should change to small room what..
becoz i sill haven mature yet!!

18 Nov,
go back to China!!!!!
exciting...

Lyric..

2009-11-01T16:49:00.000+08:00

This is a lyric, which was written by me on 30 Sep!! Sorry my English sucks,, so for those who doesn't undestand English one,, too bad!! Ask someone else to translate for u!! but not me...

终于

我真的好想对你说
一切都是我的错
电话着一头的我
甚至已苦苦哀求
但你还是将自己包裹
我知道你选择了封锁

被泪浸湿了的枕头
似乎也想安慰我
傻笑着向她诉说
为何我这么没用
但我还是丢掉了船舵
你知道我选择了停泊

好想躲避阳光的照射
在我的世界里静静哼着歌
你说我只是你生活的负荷
我爱了痛了哭到累了
我终于无力了疲惫了

你始终不肯说出口
与我分手的理由
你在电话的那头
语气变得好冷漠
你也已经不管我的痛
似乎一心只想摆脱我

你的话如同把匕首
心倍它残忍穿过
你说你不再爱我
那伤口怎样愈合
我也已经失去了平衡
聆听左胸口无声崩落

尝试过了爱情的苦涩
像广阔的大海用力呐喊着
我要找到属于我自己的梦
我倦了笑了喊到哑了
我终于什么都不想了

领教过了情路的坎坷
打开心里的窗向外眺望着
周围的景色都还是妖娆的
我醉了困了该休息了
我终于放开了明白了

享受过了你给的快乐
但愿彼此都超幸福前进着
头顶的天空一样是蔚蓝的
你走了远了该起航了
你终于微笑了模糊了
我终于把你淡忘了删除了

Kays,, finish!! The lyric doesn't have melody yet..But I'll think about that!! If it has some problem pls tell me.. I'll change..

Swimming carnival

2009-10-25T17:54:00.000+08:00

The day before ystday,
the juying swimming carnival..

haha during the carnival
my gohgoh won alot of awards!!
i felt happy for him....

aft which
some irritating person kept disturbing me
wtfh i nv dong dao ni right?
si beh irritating..
we even changed to another pool,,
i dun mind u follow us,
the main thing is tat u kept bullying me
before we played tgt
zuyu asked me whether i mind to play wth him
i answered i dun mind if they dun too sabo me
i tot we are sitll frenz
then i realized that i was wrong!
tat guy disappointed me and,
i wun use tat rubber bend again
I must tell u a sentence which u'd hv heard alot of time
PLS, GROW UP!!!!

She's really tired

2009-10-09T18:16:00.000+08:00

She donno wad he thinking about,,
She also donno why she couldn't eat anything since last Tue
Haha still can vomit last Thur Claudia says she pregnant lols
wat in her stomach is juz drinks
haizzz eat for wat she dun wanto be fat like him

"break",,such a cruel word
he even said that aft the break he feels relax
See,, how selfish he is
he juz care about himself
he doesn't care about how upset she'll be

he told her that she'll forget about this relationship aft a week
I can tell you she won't
I know he tot that she has juz a bit feeling on him
but it isn't

He dun like her anymore
he got another stead
he want to concentrate on his study
break earlier is better coz they won't hang out forever
Are these the real reason? who knows

she didn't believe that he got another stead
But now she realizes,, she's wrong
she heard he likes a girl in nanyang girls' school,,
who i don wanto mention her name
she also heard that he likes a girl in my class,,
who is quite close to her
she still heard that he likes a girl in his class,,
who always play an on-line game with him
she even heard that he wants to break
is becos She's "made in China"
Funny sia!!

she force herself to stop thinking of him
she's sure that he likes Jw
he doesn't like her already
the only feeling that he has on her is just hate
Althrough she dunno the reason
she would rather believe it

she doesn't wanto hv stead anymore
At least before sec 3 she won't hv any stead
She's really tired
she doesn't wanto be hurted by anyone again
Becos this time she has been hurted by a boy
whom she most trust with
I think she won't trust a boy tat easily again
What she wants to tell other boys is:
Keep far far away from me!!!

Zuyu, thank you
You were always stand by her side while she's crying
you'll care about her when she doesn't wanto eat
emm she's able to eat liao don't worry
she even can eat more than euu!!

Rui yang, you're a good friend
You'll tell her the truth instead of make her happy
you'll make her laugh whenever she's emo emo
you'll chat with her whenever she's lonely
Becoz of you she feels better now
You're really very important to her!!

Claudia, you've help her alot
you'll advise that 'bad guy' to think carefully
you'll also share your experiences with her
about you and LWJ(Chinese name) haha
She feels glad to have such a friend like euu!!

Xue xin, Ziana & Jing yu, her support group
Haizz they said it's good to break with him
They said that she can find a better one...

Nobody could change her mind
The truth is her feeling is still on him
What the hell she also wants to give up
It needs time to forget a person that you really like
whatever, she wants to numb herself into studies
let time dissolve everything

Singapore flyer

2009-09-19T21:50:00.000+08:00

Err``
Yesterday I went to Singapore flyer....
with our school touism club and many foreign students``
I was very upset becos there was raining!!!
And while we on the flyer
we could not see anything except the rain
well, we could see something luh but very blurred...
Actually this trip was not very fun.....
For me I prefer to go chess club
Firstly,, at least I can learn'bout chess
Secondly,, I can chat wth somebody
You should know who is tat"somebody"
The worse thing was,,,,
There was no band practice yesterday``````
I took bus wth Claudia:)
Haha we saw a couple on the bus````
Those things they did was veryveryvery disgusting!!
Both of them are quite fat,,
and they hug and kiss(I think was french kiss) on tat bus
Claudia said tat they got did other things very disguting as well
But I didnt see haha
Another thing,,,
I pity Xuexin very much`````
Shu did not go to the flyer becos of somebody
At last she still did not see that boy```
I think she was scolding herself yesterday
aft she knew there was no band```
I'm looking forward to Monday,,
My somebody said that he'll hang out wth me in sch
But I'm not expect him to hang out wth me
Anyway it's enough for me if I can see him.....
Bye everyone my mother asking me to go sleep liao!!!!!!

Haizzz

2009-09-17T20:12:00.000+08:00

Nearly EOY liao

But I'm not ready yet

Becos somebody've treated me very bad

So everyday I'm soooo emoooo!!

I cannot concentrate in class anymore

Haizzz

Now I understand that why parents aren't allow us to have BGR